Breakdowns

Dustin went to Chicago for work at the beginning of October for 6 days. It was very hard on me to be alone with our kids for so long. I was exhausted and overwhelmed. After a few days I had a breakdown, and I had one every day after, until up to 2 days after Dustin got home. Since then, I keep having them. It's not that the kids are being horrible or doing things that normal kids don't do but it seems like things happen when they aren't convenient for me and my schedule so I stress out, yell and scream at them for these things and I hate it. I end up locking myself in my room for a time-out and try to think about what is going on and why. Well my surgeon asks at every check if anyone has noticed personality changes with me, so I was concerned. I called his office and they said that what was going on wouldn't be directly related to the tumor but wanted me to get an MRI to see if there are any changes. I had the MRI last Wednesday. I'll see my surgeon next week on Tuesday. I hope that there aren't any changes but want to know why suddenly I started having these episodes (besides the fact that I had almost no help or breaks from my kids for 6 days)???

You look great!

I had an MRI in August for a normal check up and Dr. Gardner said, "Well, Jeanie, I think you look great!" I replied with, " I know, but how does my brain look?" Haha.... ;)

Other than some white areas where my brain is reacting from the radiation therapy, my brain looks great. I will see Dr. Gardner again in December without having an MRI first to see how I am doing then we will schedule the MRI.

My girls started gymnastics today and while I was there I was having a conversation with the lady next to me. I told her all about my brain cancer and my surgeries and everything and she told me I should write a book about my experience. While I appreciate everything that me and my family have been blessed with, I know there are others out there who are less fortunate. I Keep them in my thoughts and my prayers and because I have not experienced what they have, I couldn't say anything about my experience as a brain cancer survivor other than things could have been worse and they weren't so we are very grateful.

Not Recent

I really like this color lately :)

I intended on posting this picture a few months ago showing what I looked like and forgot about it! Anyway, my hair is longer today and my little scab you see in the picture (that started out as a BIG scab) is completely gone. I'll get another updated pic and post it another day.... or maybe today? We'll see.

Eric won't need surgery

Well Eric finally had his tests done and they said that the cyst looks stable and he won't need surgery or anything at this point. What a relief!

2 in the same family?

So my little brother who is 21 had an MRI that I knew nothing about until today. My mom called me, in tears, and asked if it ever ends. I was clueless until she proceeded to tell me that Eric has a 3 inch cyst on the back of his brain and needs to go get more testing done to find out if he'll need surgery or not. Wow what a slap in the face! I'm really sad about this. For those of you who don't know, Eric was adopted by my parents at the age of 11. He came to our family a year before that as a foster child. The poor little guy had been abused in so many ways some of them you would never even imagine! He has a huge heart and has always been so full of love. I've always admired him for it. If he hasn't been through enough already! It really just breaks my heart. Anyway, I needed to vent. Dustin isn't here this week due to a conference for work in Vegas and I won't see him until tomorrow night. Blah!

Recovered

Well I had my surgery on January 22 and got my plastic put in, lol..... I went home the night of the 23 and have been feeling really good! I was able to go to my dance class last night which was great. Hopefully this is the last of my surgeries!

Surgery Scheduled

I just wanted to note that my surgery is scheduled for Monday the 22nd of this month, so just over a week from now. Looking forward to it! :)